I spent NYE working and looking at the clock. But to cheer the whole atmosphere up, I ordered KFC for the whole department; my shout. Nonetheless, twenty O’ nine has been a rough, turbulent year for me. Some of it, memorable.

The most important lady in my life decided to join my grandpa somewhere up there.

I graduated from University.

My mom disappointed (anyone would be disappointed) and hurt me, and I still can’t get over it.

I came back to Singapore to realise that home is actually Adelaide.

I became a different person deep down. Someone I’m still getting to know.

Personal problems built and became disastrous. Now rebuilding everything, and still.

I found a job shortly after I came back that pays good despite the tight market situation.

Job has weird extreme working hours… which took a toll on my health.
Snipped my hair bob-short, and dyed it after 4 years.

Made new friends.

Embraced my new and old self.

Lost and found love, realising it’s true love and I really can’t deny it up till now.

Found a shoulder to cry on without realising that my shoulder has always been there; it’s me who refused to lean on.

Felt fear for the first time in my life. Genuine fear due to the inability to protect someone.

Addicted to my blackberry and still am.

Fend myself off discouragement, disappointment, and hurt.

I got tired of protecting people, and myself….

Fell sick the most this year, including suspected H1N1!!!

Diagnosed with eating disorder and mild depression which shocked me because I never thought I would be a victim of this 2 disorders.

Got to my lowest weight in history since primary 4. LOL.

Stopped blogging because I lost myself.

Got inked.. after some of many years contemplating. Now considering of expanding the art.

Found encouragement I need.

Most importantly, I found back myself.. shortly after embracing my new self.

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It is not easy to walk the road alone, and I have done so. My guess is that because I thought I could do it alone and that no one else would understand why I chose this path. I was wrong. The most valid reason is that I couldn’t bring myself to open up and trust anyone to walk the road with me. It was my way of shielding myself from unnecessary harm.

I don’t have a resolution because it’s really pointless for me to say it and not do it. But what I do know is that I’m going to let you join me in this journey because I trust you and I want you to.

Happy new year. To my love, and all my readers.